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Doubts and Blogs

“Resistance is always lying and always full of shit.”Steven Pressfield

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I have been nagging at the back of my mind on how I cannot keep up with blogging. If you are still there, hopefully reading this, you will or have noticed that it has been months.

Many famous occasions have passed already: Halloween, Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, New Year’s Eve, First day of the current year, Valentines, the first quarter of 2017… That is how long I have been on hiatus. It has been months!

Truth is,

I have been struggling on:
– how to keep on blogging
– making time to rewrite my writings
– making time to post my writings
– having the courage to do it

Wondering on:
– how to build my muscles in blogging
– what I can and must share

Do I really have anything to share?

There it goes! That is the killer of them all. DOUBT.

I have been doubting myself if I have anything to share.

I know it. I am aware of it. I am grateful for knowing and being aware of the doubt in me. And how come I cannot create and build my habit of blogging when I know and am aware of the problem?

Is it the real problem or what?

Here’s another truth:

I know I have something to share.

Everyone does. You have it in you. I have it in me. We have it all! That is the good news.

And so, what is stopping me?

Being aware and knowing that I have something to share, that I am still alive and I have a story, now it all comes down to RESISTANCE —commonly known as FEAR.

Doubt is resistance.
Fear is resistance.
Resistance is the enemy.

Resistance to do the very thing that I know is good for my journey it is!

Now what?

inspiration · life · love

Loving Now

“Love only grows by sharing. You can only have more for yourself by giving it away to others.” -Brian Tracy

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I recently discovered 30 Days of Genius and really loving it! So much to learn from the featured guests like Brene Brown, Seth Godin, Elle Luna, Gretchen Rubin, Marie Forleo and MORE. Check it out now if you haven’t yet.

Love the truths, grit, love, vulnerability and hope on this story by Jennifer Albin of Soul Whisper Arts.

eBookapalooza organized by Samantha Bennet. Expires September 13!

Marie Forleo’s Love Warrior interview with Glennon Doyle Melton

and finally,

Susannah Conway’s interesting list of things that is worth checking out. I was really entertained with the 128 words to use instead of “very.”

Enjoy friends! Happy day to you 🙂

15 Minute Practice · art · art and fear · grace · gratitude · life

Here To Stay + June & July Roundup

“We have to learn how to maneuver through those particular times of doubt and uncertainty and recognize them, remembering to be especially soft with ourselves and accept those moments for simply what they are – a chance to grow.” —Marisa Anne

“When a man takes one step toward God, God takes more steps toward that man than there are sands in the worlds of time.” —The Work of the Chariot, The Artist’s Way

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I am out for a late lunch. I am having a pesto + greens + a cup of Sri Lankan green tea. I am enjoying this time alone with me.

I imagined this day earlier…

I would be in a quiet place. A coffee shop. I will sit there, eat, dream, write and read a good book. Aaaaaah, purr-fect…

But wait, so much so of the day dream!

Here I am, happy and feeling at peace. I am not in a quiet place. The background music is loud. And it’s pop. And I am writing. I can write. That is unusually me. Because I love silence, especially when writing. But I am writing. So, this is good thing 🙂 And I will keep doing so.

Hello friend! Thank you for waiting, for staying with me. Well, I am here to stay. That is the good news and so much more 🙂

These past two months had been a whirlwind of possibilities, joy, overwhelm, risks, anxiety, worry, excitement, happiness, exhaustion…name it! It has been really a crazy two-month-rathon over in my life. It was not like any before. I plunged into a place called unknown. I did it! It was scary, but I did it. It was crazy, but crazy is beautiful, so YES to CRAZY!

To round it up…

This June:

+ I launched a challenge over at Instagram. It was called 15 Minute Practice. A month-long/ a 30-day challenge to be creating/doing something that you love to do, for you, for at least fifteen minutes a day. All participants are invited to share their work or moment by capturing it with their camera phone and sharing on Instagram or in a private group I created over at Facebook. This practice of mine started on the 1st of November 2014 in response to the Art Everyday Month challenge. And May of this year, I thought why not invite some of my friends and Instagram friends to join me. So I did. And I’m glad I did it after all the resistance and fear that comes with the idea. For me, however small was our group, it was a success! It makes me happy and fills my well of joy 🙂

+ I posted almost(because one week of the month my internet connection had a problem) everyday on Facebook! This was BIG. I am not the type that keeps my FB account updated about the latest in my life + I do not log into my FB ever so often to upload pictures and/or check out the latest in my friend’s life. It’s just not me. But if that is you, don’t get me wrong, I have nothing against that practice. For me, it is just a matter of choice. So, we’re okay, okay? 🙂 The thing is, I posted daily not on my public feed, but with my 15 Minute Practice fellows over at the private group I created 🙂

+ This month is my last in the CORPORATE. Talk about an immediate head that is so generous, supportive and understanding, last-minute phone calls + emails, project turn-overs, packing things to home, questions like: why will you leave?, goodbyes to dear friends, and so much more in between. It was exhausting and overwhelming…physically, emotionally, and mentally.

This July:

+ Began the month reading some books that had been waiting for me to be read. One of which, and was an easy read but full of insights: Ignore Everybody. I love it already just by its main title.

+ Endless meetings + tasks to do with several friends, separately, to whom I gave my word for help once I left the corporate; all landscape architecture related. This was the crazy thing. Taught me a lot on saying yes and no: when, what, who.

+ So this is freelance?…I created a short portfolio about me and my background as landscape architect. I am keeping my job. This will pay my bills 🙂

+ I was offered a good position on a friend’s starting company that I did not said yes or no. But instead offered to help when I can for now.

+ Watched Daredevil series with my love; seasons one and two. I wasn’t seeing the whole thing though. It’s too much for me. Not really a fan of battle fights and blood – oozing. But I love the story. So I listen and looked. And really admired the story line, production, acting, cinematography…I was even able to paint a piece that was loved while sort-of-watching the series.

+ I got engaged! and it was the hilarious-kind-of-engagement!!!

+ I began the practice of Morning Pages.

+ Celebrated my 33rd birthday 🙂

+ I was featured in the Radiant issue of The Phoenix Soul Indie digital magazine. Weeee!

+ Some more project-opportunities care of landscape architecture.

+ Last July 29 to 30 I had literally stay-up for 24 hours and more just to finish and deliver the project I am working on with a friend. Just the two of us. Talk about dedication and persistence 🙂

+ July 31, I painted my day away.

Whew! These was all part of my two crazy-month-rathon + everything in between life, love and making art 🙂

Truth is, I thought I would be spending a month-long lazy days by July: painting MORE, reading, writing, sleeping, blogging(yes! I thought about this)… but again, the Universe works in mysterious ways. However, when I come to think of it, and I mean just now, I realized I asked for these things: help to sustain the flow of money energy and more once I leave the corporate. And gosh, it was given. In multitudes. Oemgeeeeee this is it!!! It is for real!

So, the challenge here and now is how will I organize my thoughts and to-do’s now that I am out of the structured day-to-day life while working in the corporate; now that work will come from different set of people, even different avenues; now that I have the freedom (wow, just writing that word feels powerful…freedom) to really design the systems + structure of my everyday; now that I can design my day to give time to paint some more…gosh this is big…I mean REALLY big and new and unknown…so please stay with me. Because I am here to stay.

GRATEFUL. Grateful. GRATE-FULL for it ALL!!!Thank you Holy Spirit.

with love and big, BIG grate-full heart,

Anab

Above: Mixed-media on 9″x 12″ paper, 300gsm. Day 18: 15 Minute Practice

art · grace · inspiration · life

Happy Easter!

“Then came the healing time, hearts started to shine, soul felt so fine, oh what a freeing time it was.” —Aberjhani

Happy Easter!!!

I do know that Easter, for those who are celebrating this spiritual event, is more than the eggs and the bunnies, candies and chocolates, and games. But I do love how the practice of painting eggs, hiding it and looking for it has been adopted by my parents as me and my siblings grew up. Easter for us has never been complete without egg painting and hunting. To me, every year, this day brings happy memories of it.

Colored boiled eggs using non-toxic crayons and pens have always been fun to do! This year with siblings, nephew and niece.
Colored boiled eggs using non-toxic crayons and pens have always been fun to do! This year with siblings, nephew and niece.
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Hidden eggs ready to be found by two cuties. Playing this year: my three-year old nephew and going-to-two-year old niece.

This year, it was such a joy to watch my niece and nephew put color and design in eggs with us. And instead of papa, it was me and my siblings who hid the eggs for our niece and nephew. Such fun to watch them hunt for the eggs with their mom! I know this is a new beginning of a part of our annual Easter celebration.

Again, Happy Easter to you!

 

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Grateful For Wednesday

“Gratitude can transform common days into thanksgiving, turn routine jobs into joy, and change ordinary opportunities to blessings.” –William Arthur Ward

A drop of gratitude:

♡ I am grateful for this beautiful messy life. It is joyful. It is happy. It can hurt. It can be a struggle. But I know it always and will always heal with love. It is just beautiful after all.

♡ I am grateful for finding inspiration in SARK. I discovered her a few years ago. She is like a rainbow(well Rainbow is part of her full name! Like really) I cannot ignore her. I know that there is something about this woman. There is something about her smile…Nowadays I am discovering her through writing, through her books. Absolute love. Many yeses in my reads… Her books are finding its way to me and I to them… You know her books is not so readily available here…Now, in celebration of life and love and lost love in physical form, she is gifting her and her husband’s latest book, Succulent Wild Love. Get your copy here…And do share if you are called to.

♡ I am grateful for the quiet solitary moments I can spend with me.

♡ I am grateful for knowing that there is a ‘power in not knowing.’ Not knowing where this big creative dreams of mine are going, not knowing what will my fiftten-minute practice will do to me or to my life, not knowing where exactly I will be in a few months from now, not knowing how to handle my being a landscape architect and painter and dreamer and introvert and etc. all at the same time, not knowing…It is a gift. And everything ends up with trusting. Just trusting to the Spirit. The Universe.

♡ I am grateful for the gift of this generation. How we all can be connected through this thing called internet. How amazing is that! That you can read my notes even when I am in Asia and you are in Europe or America or New Zealand…wherever! Isn’t it just wonderful? Our interconnectedness are so much so visible right now in this generation and I am glad and grateful to witness and be on this time on earth.

How about you, dear you? What are the things you are grateful for this moment? Go ahead. Think about them. Honor them. Acknowledge the many many blessings that you have right now… And together let’s give thanks for all of it. The big and the small. Especially the ones that are forgotten.

 

inspiration · life · love · women

Goodies with Heart

“Giving is true loving” –Charles H. Spurgeon

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Hello friend!

I thought you would love these goodies from some women I look up to. Don’t you think they are so generous, no? We’re lucky I would say. We’re blessed to have them come before us to help and guide us towards our big, big dreams 🙂 Well, I think they are earth angels (just like you and me).  Would you join me? I am just starting to dig in.

  1. Be quick with this: Ask an Artist Agent with Jennifer Nelson, it’s starting soon!
  2. Here’s an e-course on How to Manifest Your Succulent Wild Life by SARK.
  3. And finally, The Fire Starter Sessions Audio Course by Danielle Laporte

Again, these are all for FREE.

That’s it dear! Let’s go?

with love,

Anab