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Here To Stay + June & July Roundup

“We have to learn how to maneuver through those particular times of doubt and uncertainty and recognize them, remembering to be especially soft with ourselves and accept those moments for simply what they are – a chance to grow.” —Marisa Anne

“When a man takes one step toward God, God takes more steps toward that man than there are sands in the worlds of time.” —The Work of the Chariot, The Artist’s Way

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I am out for a late lunch. I am having a pesto + greens + a cup of Sri Lankan green tea. I am enjoying this time alone with me.

I imagined this day earlier…

I would be in a quiet place. A coffee shop. I will sit there, eat, dream, write and read a good book. Aaaaaah, purr-fect…

But wait, so much so of the day dream!

Here I am, happy and feeling at peace. I am not in a quiet place. The background music is loud. And it’s pop. And I am writing. I can write. That is unusually me. Because I love silence, especially when writing. But I am writing. So, this is good thing 🙂 And I will keep doing so.

Hello friend! Thank you for waiting, for staying with me. Well, I am here to stay. That is the good news and so much more 🙂

These past two months had been a whirlwind of possibilities, joy, overwhelm, risks, anxiety, worry, excitement, happiness, exhaustion…name it! It has been really a crazy two-month-rathon over in my life. It was not like any before. I plunged into a place called unknown. I did it! It was scary, but I did it. It was crazy, but crazy is beautiful, so YES to CRAZY!

To round it up…

This June:

+ I launched a challenge over at Instagram. It was called 15 Minute Practice. A month-long/ a 30-day challenge to be creating/doing something that you love to do, for you, for at least fifteen minutes a day. All participants are invited to share their work or moment by capturing it with their camera phone and sharing on Instagram or in a private group I created over at Facebook. This practice of mine started on the 1st of November 2014 in response to the Art Everyday Month challenge. And May of this year, I thought why not invite some of my friends and Instagram friends to join me. So I did. And I’m glad I did it after all the resistance and fear that comes with the idea. For me, however small was our group, it was a success! It makes me happy and fills my well of joy 🙂

+ I posted almost(because one week of the month my internet connection had a problem) everyday on Facebook! This was BIG. I am not the type that keeps my FB account updated about the latest in my life + I do not log into my FB ever so often to upload pictures and/or check out the latest in my friend’s life. It’s just not me. But if that is you, don’t get me wrong, I have nothing against that practice. For me, it is just a matter of choice. So, we’re okay, okay? 🙂 The thing is, I posted daily not on my public feed, but with my 15 Minute Practice fellows over at the private group I created 🙂

+ This month is my last in the CORPORATE. Talk about an immediate head that is so generous, supportive and understanding, last-minute phone calls + emails, project turn-overs, packing things to home, questions like: why will you leave?, goodbyes to dear friends, and so much more in between. It was exhausting and overwhelming…physically, emotionally, and mentally.

This July:

+ Began the month reading some books that had been waiting for me to be read. One of which, and was an easy read but full of insights: Ignore Everybody. I love it already just by its main title.

+ Endless meetings + tasks to do with several friends, separately, to whom I gave my word for help once I left the corporate; all landscape architecture related. This was the crazy thing. Taught me a lot on saying yes and no: when, what, who.

+ So this is freelance?…I created a short portfolio about me and my background as landscape architect. I am keeping my job. This will pay my bills 🙂

+ I was offered a good position on a friend’s starting company that I did not said yes or no. But instead offered to help when I can for now.

+ Watched Daredevil series with my love; seasons one and two. I wasn’t seeing the whole thing though. It’s too much for me. Not really a fan of battle fights and blood – oozing. But I love the story. So I listen and looked. And really admired the story line, production, acting, cinematography…I was even able to paint a piece that was loved while sort-of-watching the series.

+ I got engaged! and it was the hilarious-kind-of-engagement!!!

+ I began the practice of Morning Pages.

+ Celebrated my 33rd birthday 🙂

+ I was featured in the Radiant issue of The Phoenix Soul Indie digital magazine. Weeee!

+ Some more project-opportunities care of landscape architecture.

+ Last July 29 to 30 I had literally stay-up for 24 hours and more just to finish and deliver the project I am working on with a friend. Just the two of us. Talk about dedication and persistence 🙂

+ July 31, I painted my day away.

Whew! These was all part of my two crazy-month-rathon + everything in between life, love and making art 🙂

Truth is, I thought I would be spending a month-long lazy days by July: painting MORE, reading, writing, sleeping, blogging(yes! I thought about this)… but again, the Universe works in mysterious ways. However, when I come to think of it, and I mean just now, I realized I asked for these things: help to sustain the flow of money energy and more once I leave the corporate. And gosh, it was given. In multitudes. Oemgeeeeee this is it!!! It is for real!

So, the challenge here and now is how will I organize my thoughts and to-do’s now that I am out of the structured day-to-day life while working in the corporate; now that work will come from different set of people, even different avenues; now that I have the freedom (wow, just writing that word feels powerful…freedom) to really design the systems + structure of my everyday; now that I can design my day to give time to paint some more…gosh this is big…I mean REALLY big and new and unknown…so please stay with me. Because I am here to stay.

GRATEFUL. Grateful. GRATE-FULL for it ALL!!!Thank you Holy Spirit.

with love and big, BIG grate-full heart,

Anab

Above: Mixed-media on 9″x 12″ paper, 300gsm. Day 18: 15 Minute Practice

art and fear · creative practice · criticism · grace · inspiration · on writing

The Truth In My Maybes

“Quitting is fundamentally different from stopping. The latter happens all the time. Quitting happens once. Quitting means not starting again – and art is all about starting again.” -D. Bayles & T. Orland, Art & Fear

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Hello friend!

It has been awhile.

I missed this space in the world wide web where I can share my story.

The truth is, after almost two years of having a blog, I am still having a hard time on what to share, what to write about, how to write it, and everything that has to do with blogging. I even had my share of taking a course on writing/blogging, with a heart. I even read books on writing (some quarter-read to half-read books). And yet, here I am, feeling stuck.

I think the word ‘stuck’ is somewhat overly used in the creative world.

I remember reading online or in a book wherein the artist shared his/her belief that ‘being stuck’ is no true. Not the exact words, but he/she said, “We are never stuck. We only don’t do or show up that is why we are feeling stuck.”

Makes a lot sense to me.

Guilty here.

Maybe, I was not writing as often as I should be to find my writing voice. Maybe, I am too afraid to be and look imperfect to publish something that is not as good as “what I know” good looks like or should be. Maybe because, I do not yet formed a system that will help me write + publish on a daily basis (and what makes me think that I can and should have already have a system before hitting the publish button). Maybe it is because I am the Procrastination Queen.

Maybe. Maybe. Maybe…

And in those maybes, I noticed, lies the answers.

If I change all the ‘maybes’ into ‘the truth is,’ then I know I will see where this long hiatus is coming from.

The truth is, I was not writing as often as I should be to find my writing voice. The truth is, I am too afraid to be and look imperfect to publish something that is not as good as “what I know” good looks like or should be. The truth is, I do not yet formed a system that will help me write + publish on a daily basis (and what makes me think that I can and should have already have a system before hitting the publish button). The truth is I am the Procrastination Queen.

Aaaaah, the answers…

 

art · grace · inspiration · life

Happy Easter!

“Then came the healing time, hearts started to shine, soul felt so fine, oh what a freeing time it was.” —Aberjhani

Happy Easter!!!

I do know that Easter, for those who are celebrating this spiritual event, is more than the eggs and the bunnies, candies and chocolates, and games. But I do love how the practice of painting eggs, hiding it and looking for it has been adopted by my parents as me and my siblings grew up. Easter for us has never been complete without egg painting and hunting. To me, every year, this day brings happy memories of it.

Colored boiled eggs using non-toxic crayons and pens have always been fun to do! This year with siblings, nephew and niece.
Colored boiled eggs using non-toxic crayons and pens have always been fun to do! This year with siblings, nephew and niece.
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Hidden eggs ready to be found by two cuties. Playing this year: my three-year old nephew and going-to-two-year old niece.

This year, it was such a joy to watch my niece and nephew put color and design in eggs with us. And instead of papa, it was me and my siblings who hid the eggs for our niece and nephew. Such fun to watch them hunt for the eggs with their mom! I know this is a new beginning of a part of our annual Easter celebration.

Again, Happy Easter to you!

 

art · creative practice · grace · inspiration · prayer

Leap Day Art

“Sweet February Twenty-Nine!-

This is our grace-year, as I live

Quick, now! this foolish heart of mine;

Seize thy prerogative!” – Walter De La Mare

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let me share to you my art from my heart. Above is a piece of my soul’s work in honor of the leap day this year. The process was intuitive. I worked on an old painting on watercolor paper. I chose colors of paints and materials that sings to me at the moment. Made marks. Wrote some words. Repeat.

To trust. That is what I did.

I don’t know about you, but I feel called to celebrate this extra special day this year that won’t happen again until the next four years. And what’s more better way of celebrating than a painting party before bedtime? 🙂

Here’s a prayer I love which I discovered in the book, Simple Abundance(fave all-year book!) by Sarah Ban Breathnach. It is a prayer of grace by writer Marjorie Holmes:

“Just For Today”

Oh, God, give me grace for this day. Not for a lifetime, nor for next week, nor for tomorrow, just for this day. Direct my thoughts and bless them, Direct my work and bless it. Direct the things I say and give them blessing, too. Direct and bless everything that I think and speak and do. So that for this one day, just this one day, I have the gift of grace that comes from your presence…

I believe that this year is a year of grace. May we always remember to seek and ask  for grace, with a grateful heart. Always and always. Asking has a power in it.

And so this very moment, grace is what I am sending to you.

with love and beautiful grace,

Anab

 

 

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Firsts: Art Journal Workshop

“It is by teaching that we teach ourselves, by relating that we observe, by affirming that we examine, by showing that we look, by writing that we think, by pumping that we drew water into the well.” –Henri Frederic Amiel

“The thing I loved the most –and still love the most about teaching –is that you can connect with an individual or group and exceed their limits.” –Mike Krzyzewski

“I alone can’t change the world, but I can cast a stone across the waters to create ripples.” –Mother Theresa

This has been long overdue. To me, the experience is more than big enough to put into words. It has been challenging, exciting, overwhelming, lovely, beautiful, joyful…it left me in awe. The gift of firsts… or just maybe, the gift of teaching and sharing something so dear to me. Maybe it’s because, it is so powerful when women gather together. Especially in the name of art making.

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That’s me and Airees giving instructions; encouraging everyone to just go for it…This is both our first ever workshop. And I can say that we are so full of joy, of love, of support having + sharing ourselves, our works, and our processes to the participant…The backdrop of art materials are just so perfect + the books around the store. The workshop was held at Fully Booked, Greenbelt 5, Makati City.

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Eager + brave participants in action. Working on Airees’ lesson.

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This is Ellie. A surprise participant! I was so happy + inspired seeing her at work. Can you see how captivated she worked? I can picture myself through her at that age. Lucky, lucky to have her mom Dette join us. Lucky, lucky girl to have Dette as her mom!

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Half of the class with me and showing their finished art journal spread! Most of them, if not all, have never tried or never thought of painting a face ever. It was like magic unfurling as layer by layer their pages and faces come to life! Awemazing!

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My younger brother Mak. Again, I was surprised and so happy to get a lot of support from the people dear to me. I thought I would only be joined by my sister that day. But then, one by one, family members + friends arrived to support me! This was all so new to me. It was such a blessing.

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The tribe! Beautiful. Creative. Brave. Happy. Women.

The joy and the love of this experience is exhilarating. I am grateful with all my heart for being part of this circle and workshop.

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Cheers to more workshops to come!!!

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Gratitude Week/Day 2: Gifting Grace

gg“Infuse your life with action. Don’t wait for it to happen. Make it happen. Make your own future. Make your own hope. Make your own love. And whatever beliefs, honor your creator, not by passively waiting for grace to come down from upon high, but by doing what you can to make grace happen…yourself, right now, right down here on Earth.” –Bradley Whitford

What is Gifting Grace?

It is a month-long creative outpouring of gratitude introduced by Shutter Sisters. Inspired by Bella Grace Magazine, the newest publication of Stampington & Company, a magazine that caught my heart. For a month, the participants are encourage to capture grace-inspired images to share and dedicate to fellow sisters.

When I read about the invitation, I told myself that I am joining. Then I thought, what is grace anyway? How can I gift grace?

What I love about this photo sharing circle is that it happens on Instagram. What’s more is that by joining in gifting graces, we get a chance to win a copy of the beautiful Bella Grace Magazine! Just a side note, this publication caught my heart the very first time it was launched. Just by looking at it and knowing its contents by Blog Hopping to the virtual journals of the contributors. So for me, this is my chance to finally have a copy! However, before I can even post my first photo, my mind interrupted saying,

“You’re not a photographer. You don’t even own a decent camera.”

“Take a look at the gallery of #giftinggrace on Instagram, you don’t belong there.”

But in spite of hearing her speak, my inner self know that I am part of this. I was drawn to it. And I fell in love with the gifting grace idea, that I cannot let this pass. I know, I have graces to share. And I know I can gift graces too. I remembered, practicing courage, and so I did.

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In the end of the second week that I practiced courage + gifting grace with sincerity and love, I magically received a gift of grace myself. My photo was chosen and I got my first ever copy of Bella Grace Magazine! My heart swelled with gratitude as did the Shutter Sisters because when we circle in grace, miracles happen.