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Doubts and Blogs

“Resistance is always lying and always full of shit.”Steven Pressfield

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I have been nagging at the back of my mind on how I cannot keep up with blogging. If you are still there, hopefully reading this, you will or have noticed that it has been months.

Many famous occasions have passed already: Halloween, Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, New Year’s Eve, First day of the current year, Valentines, the first quarter of 2017… That is how long I have been on hiatus. It has been months!

Truth is,

I have been struggling on:
– how to keep on blogging
– making time to rewrite my writings
– making time to post my writings
– having the courage to do it

Wondering on:
– how to build my muscles in blogging
– what I can and must share

Do I really have anything to share?

There it goes! That is the killer of them all. DOUBT.

I have been doubting myself if I have anything to share.

I know it. I am aware of it. I am grateful for knowing and being aware of the doubt in me. And how come I cannot create and build my habit of blogging when I know and am aware of the problem?

Is it the real problem or what?

Here’s another truth:

I know I have something to share.

Everyone does. You have it in you. I have it in me. We have it all! That is the good news.

And so, what is stopping me?

Being aware and knowing that I have something to share, that I am still alive and I have a story, now it all comes down to RESISTANCE —commonly known as FEAR.

Doubt is resistance.
Fear is resistance.
Resistance is the enemy.

Resistance to do the very thing that I know is good for my journey it is!

Now what?

15 Minute Practice · gratitude · inspiration · Invitation · look back

July on Instagram

“Develop an attitude of gratitude, and give thanks for everything that happens to you, knowing that every step forward is a step toward achieving something bigger and better than your current situation.” –Brian Tracy

Hello friend!

Here’s a mini-imagery-roundup of the past month. I chose five images from my Instagram feed to share here on the blog. They were randomly chosen by feelings 🙂 So, here we go!

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Painting on my birthday is a must. My quiet time. Solitude. Thanksgiving. Celebration of this special, beautiful day…I have been doing this practice for 3 years already and loving it. I think, this is a practice of not only giving thanks but also an invitation to the Spirit/Creator/the Great Artist into my life. My way of practicing opening myself to receiving big, more, abundance, joy, love, and what is.

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This is an artwork of my three-year-old ‘best friend.’ She comes to visit me once in a while and always have me remember that we are best friends. How sweet is that?! I remember on this day, I gave her a pen and paper to draw while I work on something, something that will pay the bills. And then suddenly surprised me with this portrait.  She said it was me! Well, all I can say is that she captured really well how I felt that day 🙂

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This was inspired by what I was reading the day before I took this photo. It was Hugh MacLeod’s , Ignore Everybody:and 39 Other Keys to Creativity. A quick read to boost your ‘doing versus thinking or planning,’ creativity, ways of thinking and more.

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An intuitive watercolor play as I sort of watch Daredevil, the series. The outcome surprised me 🙂

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And finally, here’s the June collection of my 15 Minute Practice on faces. The girl with writings was pretty popular on Instagram. How about you, which one is your favorite?

Really, I’m grateful that we are living in a time wherein we are more and more encouraged to show our work, get support online if not available offline, in spite of those that brings us down…

On Instagram I practiced courage and continuously practice courage, every time I show up through my soul work, sharing pieces of me. It can be scary, yes. But know that somewhere out there there is someone just like you who needed a lift. And by being in the arena, showing up again and again and again, we are encouraging others to do the same.

I love that truth.

I love to know that somewhere out there there is someone just like me who is scared but is showing up. Keep trying. Sending out optimistic vibes. Through art. Through visual and written art. In whatever form of art. I love to know that there’s a creative collective energy all around the world, connecting you and me and her and him, vibrating love. I’m sure it is love.

I know it is love that connects us all.

Happy August to you!

love and light,

Anab

 

 

 

15 Minute Practice · art · art and fear · grace · gratitude · life

Here To Stay + June & July Roundup

“We have to learn how to maneuver through those particular times of doubt and uncertainty and recognize them, remembering to be especially soft with ourselves and accept those moments for simply what they are – a chance to grow.” —Marisa Anne

“When a man takes one step toward God, God takes more steps toward that man than there are sands in the worlds of time.” —The Work of the Chariot, The Artist’s Way

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I am out for a late lunch. I am having a pesto + greens + a cup of Sri Lankan green tea. I am enjoying this time alone with me.

I imagined this day earlier…

I would be in a quiet place. A coffee shop. I will sit there, eat, dream, write and read a good book. Aaaaaah, purr-fect…

But wait, so much so of the day dream!

Here I am, happy and feeling at peace. I am not in a quiet place. The background music is loud. And it’s pop. And I am writing. I can write. That is unusually me. Because I love silence, especially when writing. But I am writing. So, this is good thing 🙂 And I will keep doing so.

Hello friend! Thank you for waiting, for staying with me. Well, I am here to stay. That is the good news and so much more 🙂

These past two months had been a whirlwind of possibilities, joy, overwhelm, risks, anxiety, worry, excitement, happiness, exhaustion…name it! It has been really a crazy two-month-rathon over in my life. It was not like any before. I plunged into a place called unknown. I did it! It was scary, but I did it. It was crazy, but crazy is beautiful, so YES to CRAZY!

To round it up…

This June:

+ I launched a challenge over at Instagram. It was called 15 Minute Practice. A month-long/ a 30-day challenge to be creating/doing something that you love to do, for you, for at least fifteen minutes a day. All participants are invited to share their work or moment by capturing it with their camera phone and sharing on Instagram or in a private group I created over at Facebook. This practice of mine started on the 1st of November 2014 in response to the Art Everyday Month challenge. And May of this year, I thought why not invite some of my friends and Instagram friends to join me. So I did. And I’m glad I did it after all the resistance and fear that comes with the idea. For me, however small was our group, it was a success! It makes me happy and fills my well of joy 🙂

+ I posted almost(because one week of the month my internet connection had a problem) everyday on Facebook! This was BIG. I am not the type that keeps my FB account updated about the latest in my life + I do not log into my FB ever so often to upload pictures and/or check out the latest in my friend’s life. It’s just not me. But if that is you, don’t get me wrong, I have nothing against that practice. For me, it is just a matter of choice. So, we’re okay, okay? 🙂 The thing is, I posted daily not on my public feed, but with my 15 Minute Practice fellows over at the private group I created 🙂

+ This month is my last in the CORPORATE. Talk about an immediate head that is so generous, supportive and understanding, last-minute phone calls + emails, project turn-overs, packing things to home, questions like: why will you leave?, goodbyes to dear friends, and so much more in between. It was exhausting and overwhelming…physically, emotionally, and mentally.

This July:

+ Began the month reading some books that had been waiting for me to be read. One of which, and was an easy read but full of insights: Ignore Everybody. I love it already just by its main title.

+ Endless meetings + tasks to do with several friends, separately, to whom I gave my word for help once I left the corporate; all landscape architecture related. This was the crazy thing. Taught me a lot on saying yes and no: when, what, who.

+ So this is freelance?…I created a short portfolio about me and my background as landscape architect. I am keeping my job. This will pay my bills 🙂

+ I was offered a good position on a friend’s starting company that I did not said yes or no. But instead offered to help when I can for now.

+ Watched Daredevil series with my love; seasons one and two. I wasn’t seeing the whole thing though. It’s too much for me. Not really a fan of battle fights and blood – oozing. But I love the story. So I listen and looked. And really admired the story line, production, acting, cinematography…I was even able to paint a piece that was loved while sort-of-watching the series.

+ I got engaged! and it was the hilarious-kind-of-engagement!!!

+ I began the practice of Morning Pages.

+ Celebrated my 33rd birthday 🙂

+ I was featured in the Radiant issue of The Phoenix Soul Indie digital magazine. Weeee!

+ Some more project-opportunities care of landscape architecture.

+ Last July 29 to 30 I had literally stay-up for 24 hours and more just to finish and deliver the project I am working on with a friend. Just the two of us. Talk about dedication and persistence 🙂

+ July 31, I painted my day away.

Whew! These was all part of my two crazy-month-rathon + everything in between life, love and making art 🙂

Truth is, I thought I would be spending a month-long lazy days by July: painting MORE, reading, writing, sleeping, blogging(yes! I thought about this)… but again, the Universe works in mysterious ways. However, when I come to think of it, and I mean just now, I realized I asked for these things: help to sustain the flow of money energy and more once I leave the corporate. And gosh, it was given. In multitudes. Oemgeeeeee this is it!!! It is for real!

So, the challenge here and now is how will I organize my thoughts and to-do’s now that I am out of the structured day-to-day life while working in the corporate; now that work will come from different set of people, even different avenues; now that I have the freedom (wow, just writing that word feels powerful…freedom) to really design the systems + structure of my everyday; now that I can design my day to give time to paint some more…gosh this is big…I mean REALLY big and new and unknown…so please stay with me. Because I am here to stay.

GRATEFUL. Grateful. GRATE-FULL for it ALL!!!Thank you Holy Spirit.

with love and big, BIG grate-full heart,

Anab

Above: Mixed-media on 9″x 12″ paper, 300gsm. Day 18: 15 Minute Practice

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15 Minute Practice: An Invitation

“Plunging into your day knowing that you’ve already made even a little bit of progress on the work that is dearest to your heart will improve your whole world.” -Sam Bennett

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What happens

when I create something

for fifteen minutes

every single day of a month

a COLLECTION

of mini ART.

(Above: 15 Minute Practice, April Collection)

Join me this June for a 15 Minute Creative Practice for 30 days. All you need is:

♡ an open heart

♡ something you would love to do or something that you would love to TRY to do (doodling, dancing, crocheting, writing, collage, etc.)

♡ create or do it for fifteen minutes everyday of June

♡ document it with your camera phone

♡ and you may choose to share it on your Instagram or Facebook. We will use #15for30 and/or #15MinutePractice so we can find and support each other.

The practice is simple yet can be challenging so we will do it together.

Join in the fun? yes! or YES!!!☺

I’m looking forward to seeing your #15for30 and #15MinutePractice.

Connect on Instagram and/or on Facebook.

I will see you there!

With love,

Anab

 

 

15 Minute Practice · art · books · creative practice · gratitude · inspiration

Hello March + Thank You February

“For today and its blessings, I owe the world an attitude of gratitude.” –Clarence E. Hodges

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15 Minute Practice: February Collection

Thank You February

We all have goals and plans to do for a certain period of time. But sometimes, however we wanted it to be, it just didn’t happen. In blogging and in life, my February is just like that. After all, there are still so many things to be grateful for that is worth celebrating. Here are some of the thousand things:

♡ this love month inspired me to write a love poem. Which gave me an idea to invite a friend to write poem with me, throughout the remaining days of the month that lasts until this day. Everyday, just for the weekdays, we alternately assign a prompt of the day and write about it. It was fun!

♡ for researching the story behind Valentine’s day: the king, St.Valentine, the daughter of the prisoner’s guard and the love letter. From then on, I will see Valentine’s in a whole new way + that it is more meaningful because it’s my sister’s birthday too.

♡ for my books of the month: Eat Mangoes Naked by SARK, The Crossroads of Should and Must by Elle Luna and Committed by Elizabeth Gilbert

♡ for being able to visit my relatives, on my papa’s side, in Ilo-ilo.

♡ for the love  and appreciation I receive for courageously sharing my soul’s work which immensely helps me to keep going.

♡ for the support I receive in my artworks; for the buyers and commisions.

♡ for the leap day!

♡ for the creative practice and the discoveries along the way.

♡ for keeping up with the practice while my dayjob gets so demanding.

Hello March

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Found, while strolling to buy plants one Sunday morning with my love. I thought, “If only I can take this home, I will.”

Another month has just began. Many doors to infinite possibilities are opened. Challenges will surely be present. And winners too!

March reminds me of graduations, recognitions and the early taste of summer. For a few years now, this month also reminds me of the end of: the first quarter of the year(which I never looked at that way before); the month I discovered and got inspired to have a Big HOPE-full heart to live a creative life and own a creative biz, that it is possible; a month to pick myself up and be gentle with me wherever I am in this journey of living a creative + authentic life; and to remind myself to have courage and be brave and to trust the journey.

I have big hopes for this month. I am hoping it is the same with you. Just in case this might help, I would like you to know that I am still working on my 2016 planning workbook. I’m still planning my year. And it is okay. It is truly okay. We all are a-work-in-progress. We just have to know that and own it. You and me a beautiful+messy work-in-progress☺ We can do this together!

Wishing you all the best this month,

Anab

 

 

 

15 Minute Practice · gratitude · inspiration · life

Hello 2016

“Hope smiles from the threshold of the year to come, whispering ‘it will be happier’…” –Alfred Tennyson

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Dear friend,

How was your New Year so far? My hope is that you are having a blast already☺.

And if not, know that it is okay. It is okay… If you are still getting the feel of it, it is okay. If you are still adjusting, it is okay. If you are (a little) overwhelmed, take your time to take it in, it is okay. It is okay.

Here, take my hand.

Maybe you are just like me, still on the process of dreaming and planning this big shining year that has already began. Just like me, still organizing my thoughts; feeling a little afraid being left behind… Then if so, let us remember this, ‘Courage,dear heart'(C.S.Lewis).

Have courage.

Together let us hope for a beautiful, abundant, bright, and joy-filled year. Together let us trust in the infinite possibilities embracing us in this very moment; waiting to be noticed, to be heard. Together let us have faith to the Great Artist that co-creates with us, our very own designer. Let us believe. Let us love. Let us do the work.

In other news, I am back full time in my day job since the 4th of January as landscape architect. Six times a week, a warrior commuter+employee. Seven times a week, a warrior creative+girl+everything in between.

To keep my creative flame on fire though, I still keep up with my fifteen-minute practice, daily; planning and dreaming in between; designing a life i (will) love each day. That is how I roll these days. And I am grateful for every part of it; the big parts, especially the small parts; the challenges, the confusions, the rewards; the sadness, the joys. All of it.

Your turn now. Tell me if you must, what are your hopes for this leap year? How do you want to feel? How can we support each other?

with love + hopeful heart,

Anab